Monday, October 7, 2013

a resume

This Sunday, in church our pastor was talking about a resume. In particular Paul's resume . 

It was impressive. 
He then asked the question. What's on your resume. 

When He was talking about that I started to feel things. 
Things stiring inside me. 

Someone had asked me the day before, 
"What did you do before you were a Mom?"

I answered, " I have been a Mom since the age of 19. " 
I don't think she was expecting this answer, as she had had a professional career 
before being a mom.
For some crazy reason in this society we live in this answer just doesn't seem to cut it. 
it should, but women tend to look down at other women for this very answer. 

If I had to write a resume,
I could put down a lot of different jobs. 
I could but down Wife, Mother, Friend. 
Blogger, Quilter, Crafter, Photographer. 
Oh I might just put down Artist... 
I can add Home schooling Mom to that list and 
interior designer. 

But whenever I think about myself, I often feel I can do many things
but I don't excel at any of them. 
(now I know that the thought is straight from the Devil) 

I want to see myself as a child of God. Beloved. 
I want to be a nurturing  person who lives for the Lord. 
I want people to see his light in me. 

I want people to see the miracles that God has so graciously
preformed in my life. 
Like Restoring my Marriage. 

I want to shout it from the roof tops. 

GOD is the only reason my marriage is alive. 
God restored my marriage. 
God healed our broken hearts .

I want that to be my legacy. 
I want people to know that God wants to heal them
no matter what the circumstance, 
failed marriage, adultery, feeling betrayed. 
God can heal it and make it new. 

Our daughter has walked away. This summer she walked away. 
I was so angry. I was mad. 
God. Please don't tear my family apart a second time. 
I can't bear it. 

I cried that on my knees. With all of my being. 
I cried it out to God. 

I felt as if I had failed Emily. 
I felt like such a failure as her MOM. 
I was so sad and heartbroken for a few weeks. and then God gently reminded me
"I love her more" 
"I love her more then you could ever love her. I have her. She has turned her back on me.
Let me handle this. Give it over to me"

I can not tell you the peace I felt about her when I pray this.

I pray that God will use these circumstances to give her 
a heart for the Lord.

back to my resume.
I think my ultimate resume would be this

Proverbs 31:10

10 [b]A wife of noble character who can find?
    She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
    and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
    all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
    and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
    bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still night;
    she provides food for her family
    and portions for her female servants.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
    out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
    her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable,
    and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff
    and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor
    and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
    for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed;
    she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate,
    where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
    and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
    she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,
    and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household
    and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
    her husband also, and he praises her:
29 “Many women do noble things,
    but you surpass them all.”
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
    but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
31 Honor her for all that her hands have done,
    and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

My Favorite part of that scripture is

Her Children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her.

Oh How i have to read that over and over again. My job is to
 1. Live for Christ so that others see him in me.
2. Be like this Proverbs 31 10: 31 woman.

And someday when I stand before my Judge I want to hear the words.
Well, done, my beloved. Well done. 

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